I’ve always yearned to be more than what I am, dreaming of this bigger, better version of myself.
What a disservice to myself.
Three and a half years ago, I had a realisation that all I needed to do to become this future version of myself is to stop acting as though she is out of reach. The moment I stopped chasing and started being present and accepting myself as I am right now… is the moment that I became all versions of myself.
Boom!
The problem with this aha moment was that it was followed by a total upheaval in my life. Things changed, quickly and painfully.
I’m on the edge of the same realisation again. Over time, I’d gotten caught in the rat race— striving, reaching, doing whatever I can in order to become this ideal version of me. Constantly working towards this dream. On and on and on
But then, I stop and think this:
“I don’t need to do the thing to become the thing.
I need to do the thing because I already am the thing.”
Boom again! Something new has cracked open inside me.
All the pressure I’ve been putting on myself doesn’t make sense anymore.
I don’t need to show up in order to prove myself, I show up because that is who I AM!
I remember that the version of me I’ve been chasing is already living in me—just waiting to be expressed through PRESENCE!
