I feel a little bit invisible in this wide world. Sometimes I feel like I send everything I create hurtling into a void. I’m about to make a big move and I’m terrified of failing. Even just thinking about it makes me feel even more insignificant. It’s almost like I’ve conditioned myself to play small and remain inside myself.
I’m okay though, my excitement pushes me through. Well, actually, it’s not so much excitement but this incessant urge to continue on no matter how few sales I make or how few followers I have or how few “likes” my posts get. Sometimes I wonder if it’s just my ego that wants recognition for all the hard work I’ve put in, but then I remember that spark to create something so wonderfully intricate and meaningful and I’m sure that what I offer is needed in this world.
It feels so contrary, to talk like that. Taboo, really. Like, just listen to that chick, saying her work is important.
Anyway, that’s how I’m feeling. Needed yet invisible.
